June 23rd, 2009
The Looming Hole
Well, today is my last day of class! I cannot believe it. For two years now I have had three primary responsibilities: wife, mother, and student. And now one of those is done. I will admit that a big hole appears on my horizon as I look into next year. Of course, that’s not to say that I will not be busy. No – being a wife and mom (and pastor’s wife) will still consume most of my energy, time and love. However, there’s still a hole. But this week, as I read a prayer out of a book that a friend sent me, I received comfort and hope…
Christ the eternal priest:
Offer our lives to the Father.
Lord you are love itself:
Grant that we may love you.
Give us today the fruits of the Holy Spirit:
Make us gentle and kind.
Although the entire prayer is beautiful and necessary, the first two lines really caught my attention. “Christ the eternal priest: Offer our lives to the Father.” Isn’t that beautiful?
Can you just see that? I have in my mind the picture of Christ, dressed all in white, picking me up and offering me up to the throne of God saying, “Here, this one loves you. What are you going to do with her life? She’s willingly giving it all to you.” That picture gives me hope, it gives me peace, and it gives me patience as I live my life as a wife and mom. Perhaps those two main responsibilities will be the primary ones I will have for years. I will try to have peace with that because I know that Christ has offered my life to God, and thus I need to wait for God’s timing for when he is ready to add another way to serve Him to my plate of responsibilities.
I know it will not be easy. I get discontent so easily. However, I will keep reminding myself of this prayer, and I will continue to pray for God’s guidance and wisdom as he fills my plate. God is good. God is love. God can use each one of us, whether it is as wives, mothers, church members, friends, and/or at paid employment.
Christ the eternal priest:
Offer our lives to the Father.
Amen.